A Creative at Heart
Limpopo, South Africa
Sometimes amongst a moving life season, we forget who we are. I won't lie, at the end of December I reached that point. The holidays can be hard to juggle on their own, adding our first real experience as a retail store made it even more difficult to navigate. At that time I wasn't sure what I felt about who I was becoming. I felt lost. I felt like I had been going with the motions and saying all the right things (or trying to) but inside I felt uncertain of what my next step would be.
It wasn't as though I didn't love what I was doing, I was just unsure of what direction I wanted to grow in. I was so busy going with the motions that I lost all sense of myself and my roots as a creative. We've all been there - when a sense of uncertainty sneaks its way into the creative space in our minds. I'm here to tell you although we are all there at times, there's always a light of inspiration awaiting us on the other side.
Finding Myself Again in a Far Away Place
Loskop Dam, South Africa
As many of you may know, almost immediately after we wrapped up with our Pop Up retail shop we got on an airplane headed to South Africa to visit Piet and my family and friends on that side of the world.
We headed out so fast that I didn't have much time to decompress and reflect on the holiday season. I thought I'd have time to do both of those while on our visit. I thought the fresh air and summer sun would be enough to revitalize me.
We saw many people and took in many beautiful places, yet we were riding the struggle bus with the whole "reflecting" thing. It wasn't until the end of our trip that we were able to sit down, reflect and strategize on what was next for us.
Piet is my sounding board, as I am for him. We always strategize and make decisions together. It may sound sappy, but I don't care. My husband is the best parter I could ever ask for when it comes to making decisions. I'm a dreamer, he's a doer, we balance each other out. We know that when we get to a point where we're on the same page about decisions, we crush 'em!
Even with our conversations, I was still unsure of who I was and where I wanted to go, especially with the blog and even more so, with Dak & Co. I'm sure many of you can relate in some way shape or form.
Inspiration, Dream, Do
God's Window, South Africa
Little did I know, taking rest was paying off, even though I couldn't see it at the time. Looking back I realized I was so impatient. I wanted answers here and now, and was worried sick that it wasn't going to ever come. I was worried the "creative block" was becoming an issue.
A few days after we got home and settled in, I was blessed with new inspiration and ideas. I immediately got excited and started scribbling words down, and this is what I wrote:
I finally knew the direction to go with season 2 of Find Your Style and the blog. I wanted to celebrate all those who dedicate their lives to their creativity. As individuals we often only see the final product, the final design, the final piece of artwork or the final plating of a meal. What we don't see is the 90% of grit and grind going on behind the scenes. My goal is to share with you the inspiring story of how designers, stylists and artisans go from concept to final product through all of the ah-ha moments to the moments where they felt like they couldn't get thorough, yet did.
Along with this, I've decided to further develop my roots as a designer by sharing design tips, tricks and inspiration with you. One of the best ways to learn and grow is to share with others, which is precisely what I'm going to do.
My Hope For You
It took me the better part of a month to finally come to some realizations. It took me this long to realize where I need to make changes in my life. I finally feel like I'm back on the right track, yet there's still a long way to go. With good talks with Piet and lots of prayer, I know it can happen.
My hope is to inspire you, and let you know that you shouldn't fear. We are given gifts and talents to achieve and thrive, and the only time we fail is when we quit trying. So, join me for this next adventure in celebration of you, my creative friend.